as an introvert, letting people see my real feelings scares the shit out of me. i don’t want anyone to see me cry. on the same note, i don’t want anyone to see me very happy or very angry or very excited. i just don’t. and when people do see me like that i stop talking and become really embarassed.
so having people tell me i have to show emotion is extremely hard. i did not know that people think i am intimidating. i did not know that people think i am too confident.
i am crushed in so many different ways it’s kind of hard to describe. the introversion part is just one aspect of this. i guess i did sign up for what i’m getting though. fuck.